I recently posted a message about how i cought the flu and felt better than ever. This lasted about a week and it was as if i was my old self again. I started wanting to do all the things i used to love doing. I was jamming with my old band mates, playing basket-ball, and hanging out with friends. My sense of smell somewhat came back, and simple smells like laundry detergant gave me a nostalgic feeling of a better time in my life. I didnt even notice my flu symptoms because everything else felt so much better. Everything felt so right and natural that i slipped back into my "post surgery routines" and almost forgot that i had ENS.
Last night, just when i felt like i could start my life again, I woke up to a familiar gasp for air and a terrible case of cotton mouth..my ENS was back! I felt like a starving man who had been given a nice tbone steak and then had it taken away after one tiny morsal of a bite. I now realize that there is no escape from this nightmare and that it will only get worse. I have tried everything; irrigation, gels, humidifiers, exercise, change of diet, acupuncture, and adderal (i am on it right now and no signficant releif). Since the surgery, i have watched my friends move foreward in life as i stay behind, my girlfriend leave me and have a kid with another guy, my rePutation around town go bad, and have lost my ability to hold a job (j used to love my job, now i cant even afford gas). Through all of this, i have tried my absolute hardest to maintain a possitive attitude. I try to tell myself that my nose will get better, but now i am realizing that it will only get worse
Nobody understands ENS and everyone thinks i am a lazy bum. But truthfully i try so hard everyday to be energetic and keep up with everyone else. I just never have enough energy and always want to go to sleep.
I dont think i can take this anymore. Im only 21 years old but the only future i see for myself is being a homeless guy. I cant do anything anymore
HAS ANYONE RECOVERED FROM THIS, SEEN ANY IMPROVE OVER TIME, OR DOES THIS ONLY GET WORSE WITH TIME?
Last night, just when i felt like i could start my life again, I woke up to a familiar gasp for air and a terrible case of cotton mouth..my ENS was back! I felt like a starving man who had been given a nice tbone steak and then had it taken away after one tiny morsal of a bite. I now realize that there is no escape from this nightmare and that it will only get worse. I have tried everything; irrigation, gels, humidifiers, exercise, change of diet, acupuncture, and adderal (i am on it right now and no signficant releif). Since the surgery, i have watched my friends move foreward in life as i stay behind, my girlfriend leave me and have a kid with another guy, my rePutation around town go bad, and have lost my ability to hold a job (j used to love my job, now i cant even afford gas). Through all of this, i have tried my absolute hardest to maintain a possitive attitude. I try to tell myself that my nose will get better, but now i am realizing that it will only get worse
Nobody understands ENS and everyone thinks i am a lazy bum. But truthfully i try so hard everyday to be energetic and keep up with everyone else. I just never have enough energy and always want to go to sleep.
I dont think i can take this anymore. Im only 21 years old but the only future i see for myself is being a homeless guy. I cant do anything anymore
HAS ANYONE RECOVERED FROM THIS, SEEN ANY IMPROVE OVER TIME, OR DOES THIS ONLY GET WORSE WITH TIME?
